Jaded

Elk drawing WIP. This is the image at about 25%. Its SUPAR big. :O I did get super lazy on that bg, but I like it. I'm playing around with poses more. I rather like how this is coming out.

WARNING: WHINING BELOW CUT.






I hadn't noticed how jaded I have become until today. I can't bring myself to care much about anything anything. I still have emotions. But I don't work through them, I just realize that, in the end, I don't care. Is that so bad though? Should I care about your emotions? Should I care if I offend?

I'm finally taking a risk in my life. I always played it safe. Now I'm taking a risk. I'm 20 in two months. I have trouble understanding that. I am an adult. I am being given an opportunity to become responsible. I can finally let go of that gnawing feeling in my heart that always told me I was a brat, irresponsible, immature, and I would never amount to anything close to being an adult.

I always imagined myself the 30 yr old kid who never moved out. I'm finally moving out. I signed the lease. No turning back. I'll miss my dogs though.